Redifining Idiot Box

Hmmmm... just feel like typin man.....

2005-12-22T05:14:00.000-08:00

Ah... it has been so bloody long man... things changed, my life changed... not sure good or bad but it did. haha. I've met so many ppl which have helped moulded who i am today. Reading back on the previous posts i have written, though few, has brought back a flood of memories... some with pieces forgotten or will never be forgotten. Underoath's some will seek forgiveness is blasting from my speakers... hmm... Thinking of so many peeps while in the midst of tryin to memorise biofund for my term test tmrw.. hz.. edevckt paper sucked badly today... cb midpoint-biased....

ahz... i'm missing a couple of peeps.... now on our own ways, rarely speaking to each other anymore. Thanks rin... for all u have given me... i've never felt that much love before.... wont ever forget u...

and to her( u noe who u r)..... i was willing to wait. but yet it seems as if i am no longer near you. isit cos u don't want me to wait anymore. I know many other guys are after u too... just wanna say wadever u do, do it for urself. pls. maybe not me. i don care. just do sumthing for urself. not cos u want others to be happy........

dats all i guess........

THe StaRt of SChoOl...

2005-06-07T08:56:00.000-07:00

its been long since i've entered an entry... i guess i lose my mood to pen down my thoughts. So, now I'm in Temasek Polytechnic, Engineering school!.. haha... hmmm.. I'm taking the course, Biomedical Infomatics N Engineering... Sounds so chim... still cant believe i got in.. hahah... hmm.. thank god i've been blessed with an awesome class... don have any 'step' nye ppl... haha... all are friendly and on sia.. haha... n all smart man... haha... feel like a fish out of water there... their attitude totally diff.. no slackers like my frens in sec school last time... haha... great 'slacking' times... hahaha.... neways, i can believe the seniors of the course are so friendly... ahahha... they keep close contact with us n help us with the startin of school n stuff.. blessed sia... haha... so far, i'm having a good time at school.. i look forward to going to sch to meet all ma frens, n strangely, even to study some subjects like HAP or intecf, dfund.... hahaha... what happen to the slacker inside of me... its still present but its slowly depleting away... haha... hope it would not re-occur... haha...
To all ma sec school frens, hope to catch up wif u guys soon... miss u guys man... sure'd love to hang with u guys again... ok ah.. ttfn... gotta study cos test comin up.. hmmm, just when everything seems nice.. hahahahahah

back from camp....

2005-05-13T17:34:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!!!!! came back from TP FOC and still feeling a bit hyped up after 2 days. haha. The school campus is aite all arnd. The camp was better than i expected. The games wont those normal boring games that camps usually have n the FAs, AGLs n Gls there were awesome. The best part of the camp i guess was the jam & hop session on the second nite! Fuyoh!!! the DJ was rocking awesome beats to groove to. We danced to R&B, Raggeaton, Hip Hop, Rock and much more... It got DAMN hot in there. Ppl all bouncing up n down n shaking their booties... hahah... at the end, the mass dance is awesome... haha... Didn't expect TP's mass dance to be that good but it was n really3 fun to dance to... ahha.. the music was funky man.

I have to say that my OG, NEON, was the craziest bunch of peeps man. Yeah NEONites! catch ya guys in school ya!! Whoot!!.... haha.... Made a few frens there but sadly i didn get their email adds except for some.. haha... wasted sakz... haha... k... still tired from te camp man... later than wright sumore... now gettin more rest for the engr school orientation next wed to fri... haha.... now i'm really looking forward to school... haah

At last.. a new comp.. wahahahahha

2005-04-15T00:56:00.000-07:00

Yeah... got a new computer. P4 , 2.8ghz, 512 mb, 80gb, dvd rom, cd writer, 128mb geforce card... haha.... awesome... but the monitor is still a crt monitor. A 17 inch compaq 7500. but who cares. its still sharper than an LCD monitor. I wad so excited when i came home from work. saw the computer and started medling with it. i satrted installing my dsl modem. set up the key board short cuts, loged on to the net and started updating my windows, anti-virus, real player and cant keep in touch to my peeps without a msn messenger. haha. After an hour doing all this stuff, i get bored of the comp.. hz... Now i can't sleep so i'm blogging.

Oh yah, today i was fed-up with ladies who dunno how to use heeled shoes with a buckle hook. You know, the one which looks like a belt but its just that you have too hook and not like remove the buckle. hz. I would understand if an old auntie come and wants to buy this fancy shoe to go for a wedding or dinner function etc. but i can't believe it when a lady in her 20's starts fiddling for five minutes on how to use that shoe... come on, the shoe is so common now a days and it doesn't take a genious to figure out its simple latching mechanism. However, i am not annoyed by those who straight away ask how to use the shoe. At least they don't make a fool of themselve by hooking it the wrong way and happily strut to the mirror to look whether the shoe looks nice on their feet. maybe its because I'm a guy or something so they a bit paise to ask but soner or later you have to know if you are going to buy taht shoe. hz. i discussed this topic with Lilian, an isetan staff, who is arnd 40 nearing 50 already. She admits that this type of shoe is a bit different but she also agrees that the customers should just ask if they don't know how to use. we laughed about this for a good few minutes till the manager came. hehe. She told me that one of her customers fiddled with the buckle for around ten minutes, trying to strap the shoe while kneeling. The customer then finally stood up(lilian thinking she would ask for help) said that the shoe doesn't fit her. !!!!...... hz....

i guess thats it for now. till then, when i have nothing to do, or got something to tel or if i have to release the trapped thoughts in ma head... haha....

To sarah Amnah, thanks for everything... enjoyed and will cherish the moments spent.

hmmmm.... its been long...

2005-04-04T00:56:00.000-07:00

Its been long since i've updated my blog... I've been thinking much about what i've written in my blog. I guess my personal love life aint such a good thing to post cos i believe that to tell everything to the world bout it would make it almost like something experimental... hz.. haha... so i guess i'll put stuff which would post some interest in u guys reading this.. haha....

So, i recently went to simple plan's concert at the suntec convention hall. Even though i was not a fan of simple plan, i had an awesome time there. Went with Farhan, Kamisah, Nabyla n Hui ling. Hui ling was Kamisah's fren. Great person. Very outgoing n fun to be with. Neways, the concert was rocking the house, literally. I could feel the floor 'bouncing' up and down together with the whole crowd who were jumping up and down. Before the concert even began, the hall was packed with ppl. the crowd around me were happening. They were totally friendly, cracking up jokes with us. Enjoyed their company. I totally enjoyed Pug Jelly's opening performance. Yeah! loved it when they played ransom letter. I got a shot of them with my camera phone but it was all blurry. Wasted man. Neways, simple plan played well and i was rocking away, bobbing my head up and down, getting into the hype mood until i stopped moving and felt the floor beneath me moving up and down like a stiffened trampoline. ( f.y.i, the concert was at hall 601). The thought of the floor giving way spoiled the mood i was in. Got worried a couple of times and i didn dare jump up and down. To make it worse, Pierre was edging the crowd to jump up and down to the song, I just wanna jump. I overcomed the feeling finally and enjoyed the rest of the show. The best part i guess was when simple plan played The Darkness's song, I believe in a thing called love. I went ecstatic hearing that song as it was totally unexpected. Neways, i found a guitar pick thrown by the basist. I forgot his name. hehe. I let Kamisah have it cos she had been wanting it from the time she went to last years MTV Asia awards. So good ah me.. hahaha..

Another recent event. I just bought good charlotte's album, the chronicles of life and death.At first, it sounded totally awefull. But at the second go at it on my dying discman, the album was pretty nice. Their lyrics have totally matured from the trash punk lyrics from their previous album. I also understood better why they wrote these songs by reading the cd booklet thank you note. Not just there to fill up pages u know. haha. I'm listening to it over and over again currently. haha.

I have also changed my facial wash to the T-zone max strength daily facial wash. Its the one with the orange tube. I'm also using its toner( also in an orange bottle) and the 'award winning' spot zapping treatment stick. Have been using it for the past week. Glad to say that my blackheads are totally gone but my face still got spots man. haha. guess i gotta wait longer for more results. haha.

I have also been working at Isetan, Ladies shoe department. Have met lots of different type of customers. But thecommon thing is that 95% of them thought that i was Chinese. Also, 100% of the Chinese customers initially spoke to me in Chinese, except for this one chinese lady who was deaf. So i have learned to say " Sorry, i dunno chinese" in mandarin. haha. Cool ah. haha. Those who have visited me at work would have known that my uniform is a red apron. haha. I look so gay in it but i cant deny the fact that the two huge pockets are very useful to store my pen n stuff when i'm doing stock checking.

I'm excited about getting into Tamasek Poly, Engineering school. I gotinto the course Biomedicle Informatics and Engineering. Cant Wait for the orientation camp. haha. Neways, Diyana got into the same course so at least i wont be alone in there. But I'm looking forward to mingle around. haha.

I guess that's it for now. till then. I guess i'll blog again when i can buy a new hard disk for my comp cos the hard disk crashed... hz... sianz... pocket burning fast man... hahah

Fate....

2005-03-03T07:20:00.000-08:00

Everything is fated to happen... How true is that phrase? living your life entirely based on fate aint gonna get u no where. So i guess fate is something up to us to create.... hz... i think of this kinda things also dunno why..... hz... I guess it was fate that had led me to meet u Sarah, n I hope that I wont just be another guy u dated.... hehe

Today, i had a chance to work as a sales promoter at Isetan, Tamp Mall..... i took over Angeline's place cos she cudn make it.. haha. so from 9.30am to 6pm, i was a sales promoter at the lady's shoes department promoting Bon Bons n Lucieno shoes..... haha.. it was great working there partly because i get to see sarah during breaks n stuff.... hehe.... But also because of the other staff working there especially Kak Zainab, promoter for DMK shoes, since she help me get used to everything from finding shoes n everything.. haha... my colleague, hui san, sorry if i spell ur name wrong. very friendly. haha... Erm there was also a gal named Sri. haha. cudn strike a conversation with her thou but seems friendly.. haha.... but it kinda felt akward since there was no other guys on the floor working there... haha..... so i was the onli one wearing a long sleeved white shirt and black pants n shoes.... haha.... was a bit tiring standing for that long. haha.... working there this sunday in the afternoon till nite... haha.... cant wait... guess thats it for now..... haha..... till then, chaoz!

A new chapter.....

2005-02-13T06:20:00.000-08:00

Hey... so life has ben going on as usual for me.... hehe. tmrw onwards i wont be working for a period of time till the next shipment of pc arrives... haha.. Yay! long break.. haha..... neways, I've met this gal recently... hehe.. met her at TP courses seminar or sumtin... haha... her name's Sarah Amnah. I've been dating her for the past 4 weeks.... cudn have spent any of that time better.. I'm so crazy bout her. Dunno why. I'm so attracted to her, the way she is... very unique, original. Been spending time with her alot... hehe..... hope i can be her guy soon.... haha

neways, today i went to the hospital with Queen n leong to visit syaherah.... haha.... kesian man she kena like dat.... haiz....... get well soon aite sya.... so i duno wad to rite animore... thast it then.. chaoz

IN the midst of utter boredem!!!!!!

2005-01-26T22:37:00.000-08:00

Days pass as if i was to re live a day over n over again.... Cant seem to break from this routine.... too long since i've went out with my frens a whole day! Work pays off but the suffering is way worst then havin a ton of hw to do over the weekends..... haha...... hmm... at least my colleague got a gal who perks him up everyday... lucky him... haha.... well, at least he got something to look forward to everyday other than waitin for the pay check... haiz... haha. i think i've gone crazy trapped inside this sick sad little world.... the papers arre als getting uninteresting cos the news always surrounds on disasters, mainly the Tsunami. the world is getting weird lately with all this chaos going on. Dubai snowing? A desert had a flooding? haiz...... I guess it all boils down to ur patience n optimism for a brighter future.... haha

Neways, that time took the day off from work to go to ngee ann poly n nanyang poly with din... First we went to nanyang which was great as the facilities n stuff were up to date. But i can believe that most of the students are using a compaq armada m300 laptop..... guess they for got to update their dino laptops.... haiz... N too bad the open house in nanyang didn let us look around the campus blocks. haha.... it would have ben great if there was.. haha.... Afts, we went to ngee ann poly but not b4 dropping by jurong point at boon lay.... haha..... best sakz the shopping mall.... damn power with the wide variety..... din bought sumtin for shiq at a shop there.. didnt no he jiwangz abit... haha..... the best part was when we went to Storm Hair Salon to get our hair done... hehe.. power..... the guy who cut my hair baik sakz.... (his name was jimmy tan...... haha..... gave me his name card if i had to call him.....)did it exactly how i hoped it would turn out to be n he even gave me tips to maintain my hair.... haha..... then...... we ate at the banquet n headed off to the ngee ann poly..... when reach at clementi MRT station, i met a person who i had least expect to meet(doesn mean i have not been occasionally think of her.... hehe). Saw my ex in our ex school uniform... haha.... waved at her from a distance as our paths just graced each others presence..... haha.....her eyes still make me weak... fuhh!.... haha..... OK then... back to ngee ann poly... haha.. although there was a fully organised open house n stuff, wasn really atracted to the school as their presentations was not as good as the one at nanyang.... haha... went back n happen to hop on the wrong bus which brought us into NUS.... how come got a freaking interchange infront of the school? hahaha........ we rode bus no.10 from there.. took two hrs plus to reach Tampiness!!!!!.... pantat panas sakz.... wahahahaha..... aft that, felt like watching a movie so both of us went to watch Elecktra.... haha.... wasn as exciting as x-men but was at least better than daredevil... haha...... though i still think that they could have brought the treausure's presence more boldly tahn that.. its like they're trying to say, " She's the treasure!..... BIG WHOOP"..... haha. I guess thats it... nothing more... guess i'll continue my days as per norm... hope i can find sumthin or start sumthin 'new'... haha.... aite then. tc n chaoz!

4 days has passed in 2005

2005-01-04T13:45:00.000-08:00

Hey... long time since i've written sumtin... this startin 2005 was very memorable... got to spend with my cuz from brunei! haha... exactly at 12mdn on 1 jan 2005, i was playin pool with ma cuz, nabilah, with din n farhan also... cool sia rather than sleepin all the time... hahaha... came there with other frens too like queen, xiao ping, justin, wei leong, yong lin n many others.. hahah.... u noe wad, i did sumtin this year which i tot i would have never doe... haha... on the first hour of the first day of jan of this very new year, i sound a very2 good fren of mine... can't blame me for falling for her rite?... haha... grew so fond of her... been missing her ever since school stopped. haha.. but i was turned down... haha... its aite.. she's cool with it n we're still frens... thats more important... haha... wonderful memories sia.... thinkin back of 2004. Haha... cool things happening in that year.. haha... wished my cuz could stay longer in sing but all god things must end rite.... (but no harm if it lasts longer rite... hehe)...

so, to all my frens in 2004(9hopefully still in the future to come), thanks for being me frenz.. great bunch of frens sia.. haha....
Special thankies:
To, heri, thanks for being a study partner and my spotter, swimming kaki. great times man... haha
To, karina & hui min, thanks for brightening up gloomy class days with crappy jokes! haha
To, the malay gals in me class, thanks eh layan aku bila ku sibuk2 dengar korangberbualz eh.. hehe
To the council and especially the whacked-out excos hehe.... thanks for still looking up to me as ur vp even though i got on-off days... stay chillin aite....
To my bc frens, Azri, alex, justin n diyana, thanks for making the classs enjoyable... haha
To farhan n din, thanks for being me frens from sec1 to sec4... haha... all the way sakz... haha
to, queen, thanks for puttin up with ma crap n stuff... thanks fer being a great fren aite... hope this friendship doesn end...
To, wiyah, thanks for the wonderful 2 weeks n 2 days.. haha. sorry i was not what u wanted... hope u find the rite guy aite.. hehe...
To, thosse i cant remeber rite now cos my boss comin back already, haha, i wont forget u in the future n hope u don too... haha
To my cuz nabilah, love u lots cuz!!! haha... great time when u came sia... haha. sorry i had to work n spend less time with u n ur siblings.. see u soon!!

Thats it i guess, if i forgot anithin, next blog i write eh... haha... chaoz... till then.. haha

Sux.....

2004-12-16T22:02:00.000-08:00

Haha... sunday... haha

2004-12-12T21:53:00.000-08:00

Sunday's here........... didn do it after all..... asked the gal out but she not free sia.... haha.... maybe next time i guess..... haha..... today was a nice day... went to the gym.... did ma stuff.... cleared me head.... haha... aches all over now but the glutamine tabs helped... haha.... got home, then fixed a new curtain at my moms bedroom. quite cheap ah the railing and the screws and the brackets... haha.... fixed it up.. now hopin it will last long.. haha.... Hmmm... tmrw a new day.... working again tmrw but wad the heck... love the bus 35 ride to tanah merah ferri terminal... wahhahahaha.......... cool ya...... so i think thats the entry for today... hmmm....wonder if the gal noe its her or not... haha..... haiz.....

Wow.... keeps gettin stronger as her leave comes near....

2004-12-11T00:14:00.000-08:00

Eh... serious man.... cannnot help it but need to tell her soon.... Been side-tracked for a while but i cant believe the freaking rush of blood throughout my body when i see her again.... u noe the westlife song which has the lyrics, 'you cant lose what u never had'.... haha.. Sounds right at first but come to think of it, what if u lose ur friendship with her?? She may say we're still frens but there will be an uncomfartable feeling whenever we're around each other.... her friendship is to precious for me to lose, like a treasure. Keep askin myself why don i have the courage to just tell her... haiz.... Guess I'm gonna do it this sunday... haiz... pray that it turns out well.... times like this, I wish I could just have not fallen for her... haiz.... stress sia... waistline getting bigger again... sianz.... well, i guess i am starting my intensive exercise regime again.. U think i wouild have a chnace? I mean her dream guy is like a korean actor or a freaking model!!! damn... wad would i be in her rating? a pathetic one? maybe even just a half....... haiz...... I love u!!!!!! haiz... wouldn it just be easier if the gals would like at least tell a fren that she likes someone so that at least the guy can save himself from all this?? haha..... sacrifices huh.... coolz... so here goes nothing... hoping that something will be returned.... who noes my rose dedicated may be returned with one??? haha........ stay chillin peeps......Aite....

A very interesting day... haha

2004-12-08T23:39:00.000-08:00

So, again, went to work in the morning. Now my workplace is at changi south warehouse, PC Holdings. haha... So sian must walk so far cos the bus stop miles away sia.. haha.. but at least my thighs gettin smaller... wahahhahahhahahha........... Neways, work today was totally like slack... didn even complete a pallet of deskstops.. haha... The start of my interestin day was after work.. hoped on the company's bus to the tanah merah mrt station... haha... then me n din went to tamp to play pool but no more table... sianz... haha... then went to the parkway parade's pool by riding a cab.. haha... So,this was wad happen. When me n din got off the cab,i realised my hp still in the cab... so i started to chase the cab.. haha... then din ran after me n caught the taxi first... panickly, i took my phone back. we so freaking had an adreneline rush.. both of us walk back, laughing bout it... n then it happen.. haha.. din found a hp.... irony sia.... still kinda unbelievable.. haha... i tell u, both of us were feeling out of this world... both of us got lucky at almost the same time.. haha... so then go play pool, still having the rush of excitement. haha.. Met Fitri, Adib n fareez at the pool tables.. haha....learned a few tricks but couldn concentrate properly cos we were like shooting but thinkin bout the phone... haha.... powerz... haha.. so that hour we anyhow shoot onli... haha....
Afts that, we went to the shoppin centre to buy speakers for work tmrw.. haha so not boring mahz.. haha.... I bought the sony speakers which cost a bom... haha. but the sound quality power sia.... mega bass is awesome.. hahaz... so that was my day today.. hehe... coolz... haha

another day it seems....

2004-12-05T21:02:00.000-08:00

Today. went out with din to play pool at parkway parade. haha. v.nice... my skills improvin.. haha.. then afts walked around the shopping centre to find a shirt but cannot seem to 'fall in love' with any shirt. haha.... There were nice shirts from Springfield, levi's, maui $ sons and also from this boutique but they were around $70. If it was then, b4 i started work, sure would buy.... haha... but now come to think of it, work so hard just to blow off a quarter of ur paycheck on one shirt..... haiz.... tak jadi beli man... haiz...... haha... so now, waitin for my mum n dad to caome back from Johor. haha....... check my friendster just now. i got a reply from the gal that i was 'waitin' for. hehe.. but, kena rejected..... so happens while i was waitin for her for almost 2 MONTHS, she went with another guy...... haha..... wasted time sia... haha.... The strange thing is that i felt relieved...... u would expect urself to be sad but it felt as if a huge burden was lifted...... funny... maybe bcos of this gal..... hehe.. i guess my feelings too had shifted for another gal.... but sadly, this gal leaving sing'.. haiz..... i mean we have been frens for so long. Liked her long time ago but just let it drift cos i tot it could never happen.. hehe.. but now dunno why the flame rekindled n it has been burning at its everbrightest... haiz... most prob will be extinguished when i tell her like wad happen with the one b4... haha.. tahts life rite?. take risks n bear with the consequnce....... haiz.....
Apart from the emo thingy, I just bought the Collision Course CD..... POWER!!!!!!!!!.. the dvd awesome... the songs are new n excitin.... for $16.90, very worth it for the LP soldiers and the Jay-Z fans.... haha..... so i guess thats all for my entry.... haha... very funny ah when aft publish read it again urself.... haha

An ode to a loved one....

2004-12-04T06:04:00.000-08:00

She was the one
Who was always there for me
She was the one
Who showed me how to laugh.....

My heart bursts with joy
Everytime I hear her voice
My heart aches
Everytime she sheds a tear

She was there by my side
Only to notice her now
Taking forgranted that she'll be here
till our laughter became more distant

With this ode
Before she leaves
with hope brewing greater
that she will noe the rose i dedicate to her......

Started Working alreaady.. haha

2004-11-26T07:04:00.000-08:00

I got a job at Nippon Global Inc. on the 23 of november as a part time IT technician... haha.... the name sounds all stylish... haha.... Quite excited get to work for the first time....I feel all grown up, matured n also having a diff outlok in life.. its like u get to see the young adults n the experienced aadults working... working around them in the same building lets me see them in a diff way... normaly i would just stereotype them as working adults, far from my area... but working lets me see them during their lunch breaks gathering together with fres to talk and laugh like teens in between remedial slots... i guess even though u are working, u still want to be enjoying life like during the teeenage yers... haha.... Things have changed alot... feel i have grown responsible n all actions i take i seem to predict the outcome first.... one thing i hate is that i don get to be with my frens as usual as i do... gotta work from 0900 to 1800... not complaining bout the time cos i find the job interesting hehe, but i feel sad that i have to reject or ask my frens to wait fer me if they wanna go out together.. sigh... guess sacrifice is an evitable thing in life no matter which path u take........ but all is well as i gonna receive my pay check tmrw...... WOOOOOOHHHOOOOO!!!!....... haha............ satisfied with the time i spent......... haha...... neways, gotta sleep early.... haha.. wanna come early for work tmrw so can recieve my money.... huehueheu...... haiz....... life........

On the edge

2004-11-06T06:27:00.000-08:00

..... hmmmmm. i ain't suppose to be doing this but kinda need some peace in the head....... in the midst of the O's....... maths p2 and chem ppr coming up....... i gotta score 1s for those two if i dream of entering a poly...... But in all, sitting for the O's aint that bad.. haha.... finding myself bit more mature.... hints of self-discipline seems to be budding in me.... huehuehue..... Neways....... i wrote this entry here to maybe store my feelings in the blog for a while??.... hmmm... i got thinking bout after the O's...... FREEDOM!!! yeah!!..... but with that freedom comes a price.... suddenly realise that things are going to change, and theres no turning back......... Gonna miss my sec school days especially the memories and all my friends that hung out with me for the 4 years.... time flies fast..... in about 2 years more I'm entering NS.. looking forward to completing that... haha........ the future huh?....... freewill moulds it, morals and experience guides it and friends make it worth looking forward too..... :)..... guess I shud concentrate on what is now than rather looking that far ahead....... sigh.......

2004-10-15T07:05:00.000-07:00

Writting in again... haha... just had my grad nite on 13th... A nice nite... haha.... I must say that my friends all dressed up pretty well.. all of them were shinning. haha..... It was nice as the representives from each class gave a speech... Then afts there was a dance which i attended but was disappointed as i tot it was going to be a ballroom dancing type... but it was like a disco with techno and dangdut songs were played.. haha... me n my frens who were not into clubbin left the place and went arnd orchard... haha... was nice to hang out with them for what most probably could be the last time... haiz... missing those days already... haha.....

Down and up at the same time..... sigh.......

2004-09-29T23:11:00.000-07:00

have u felt so confused about the feelings u have in ur heart........ i mean.... u get the feeling of anger, sadness, joy, nervousness all at the same time..... Well... lately, i have been receiving my prelim marks and they were not of what i expected... i guess i didn't work smart....... i knew i could have done better but somehow.. this was the outcome. I can't believe i still get marks so bad as those st this point of time....... this was when all the negative feelings started brewing in me... i get jealous at those who get high marks which seems to take a miracle( or super hardwork) to get...... I then get angry at my pathetic self for not working as hard as them...... Also.... some subjects where i put in extra effort i expect a grade of A2 but sadly.. i only ot a B3..... Arghhhh...... so dampened by this.... but what to do.... u have to perk yourself up to gear up for the battle thats coming in a months time...... sigh.......
Luckily..... haha....... this is where the joy i feel comes in....... God has been kind to have given me this fren..... who seems to be able to lift my spirit high enough to get me fighting again........ She has recently entered in the chapters of my life again when we met in this english crash course...... haha....... She was my old primary school friend.... didn't notice her back then but i wish i did.... man is she ever the most sweetest and the most loveliest person..... She so breath takingly gorgeous and she has a heart of gold.... Just her presence is enough to bring me to Lala land..... her smile melts all the sorrows away and her voice and words, serenate and soothes my senses; like planting a euthopia garden in my midst......... Her laugh just..... my god.... its undescribable..... I have like become addicted to her...... awaitin the days in the week when i will be seeing her....... Being with her craddles me to dreamland, spiritually........ just what i need in stressful times like this...... I am so fortunate to have gotten a friend like her........ can't deny that i have fallen for her.... hahaz..... who knows in the future......... its all up to fate......... hahaz..... well, gotta face reality again and start diving in the pile of work.... haiz...... just appreciating the simple things in life...... hahaz....... :)

2004-09-27T07:41:00.000-07:00

Hey.... Today ain't such a good day for me.... its so stressfull...... I took the picture of myself above and edited it just to let my mind of things.... the pressure of scoring well in the O levels is driving me nuts... teachers are giving homework like theres no other subject....... Even at in this late night, I am still struggling to complete a comrehension passage. The sumary is a killer...... My whole family is like so free watching America's next top model... hahaha.... makes me kinda regret not being serious throughout my secondary 4 life...... Luckily I have some place to release all my messed up feelings huh..... For those takng their major exams soon.. good luck to you and all the best... i have to return to my revision now... till then.....

The First ever entry

2004-09-26T08:33:00.000-07:00

Blogging world huh......... Today's the day i created my first account. Basically, i started this to release my improsined mind..... to let out what ever shit i have and to have a peace of mind.... I guess i want to record my feelings as i want to find out who i am. My entries I guess will be mostly on my feelings and my days on earth. I'm currently going to Bedok North Sec Sch..... so i guess for this last month of my sec schoool life i will be recording my memories in this school life.... so enjoy reading if u still wanna read after reading this first lame entry... haha......